| I have tried my very best to make this an end.
To come to my own sense realizing this is totally ridiculous.
And To finally believe that I won't die if I'm not with you.
But no. U just won't let go.
o well...I don't care, I want you in my life. |
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| Saw this from a randomer's entry. exactelly me tho... copied and pasted it.
我並非十全十美，是我高估了自己但亦高估了你。事實擺在眼前要我怎去問你?亦不懂得再應該以甚麼身份去問你大家都說：「旁觀者清，當局者迷」，但若我自己亦是當局者，我應是迷是清?好累，維持這種關係好累。可不可以回到最初那種單純的朋友關係? 或許更適合我們。但當一切都變質還可以回到從前嗎?我承認我是在介意。介意她那麼貼近你但她卻不是你的誰，介意你並沒有拒絕她但也沒有接受她。或許我才是那個應該離開的人，這樣我們三個都會好過。我放棄，我退出，我錯了嗎?我只不過是想把這段關係變回平凡。我並非你想象中那般和藹那般大量，大量到你被她人搶去了，亦只是笑著說：「沒關係你們慢慢聊。」你到底把我安置在哪個位置?朋友比戀人更高分嗎? 她亦比我高分嗎? 正因為她是你「朋友」? 那麼我可以也做你朋友嗎?
我寧願做你的知己好友，至少你會把我放在更高的位置。不想讓你覺得我煩，總是徹查你去了哪? 和誰在一起?只是問了兩次，我也覺得自己煩，煩到快要徹底崩潰。愛情是甜美的，但也如同琉璃般易碎。究竟是我的計較破壞了我們的愛情?還是你的隨意打碎了我們之間的信任? |
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| Enough drama for the weekend
I feel bad for being out of control
I have made my decisions so for whatever's gonna happen
I will bear it myself
end of discussions |
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| Yes you are right. God's word can sometime be very annoying
but no matter how many time u try to deny
deep down u know He's always right
my whole life is so bloody screw right now I don't even have a line no more.
I can't help for being what I m or how I feel
I don't even know why I still hold on to what I belive anymore
if it's not cuz if the fear of God
it's not like I havnet try to find people to talk me over with
or have someone to give me a big slap on my face
but at the end is the day
I'm still back to square one
I can't divine if it's because of I love you so much, or if it's because suddenly I feel like I cannot bear my life without you anymore
or because of both
maybe my last resort will be either have u killed, or killing myslef
once again, love have turn me into a monster
once again, I'm turning into the old me
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